things have changed

Its been quite a while..

 mom’s here now, in the phils. setting herself back to the place again. I know it would be very much hard for her, quitting from her job, going back to the phils without any savings, being banned from Qatar, looking for a new job but with less salary, etc. I know everything was my fault… ALWAYS! but i’m trying my best to change everything, just for her. Because i know everything she did to us, especially to me. I love my family so much, and also kate and her dad. I said to myself that i need to grow up now. I don’t want to be a loser to them. I want to help them, especially to prove to myself and to those people that i can be a better person, a better mother and a better daughter. So much to say, but less actions. How stupid and lame of me! 

So much for that now, I just want to be alone…

Til next time